An awesome day... I experienced two extremities... true harmony within and without and true chaos within and without! All in one day! After my morning run down south ocean boulevard, lauderdale-on-the-sun and swim in our communical pool...I settled down into some quiet 'me-time' and tuned into 11-11-11.
I settled into the energy, breathing it in and just feeling the energy that was about, within me and around the globe... I felt such gratefulness, presence and belonging...true harmony that made me feel so grand! I asked myself the question what 11-11-11 was all about (for me)... I felt and saw myself become illuminated, standing tall and holding hands with other people in a great circle... I understood that I had chosen this moment to show myself to the world, to share my vision of my grandness (the grandness that all humans possess... but do not necesserily show) and our NEW EARTH that we can create together...
It was all about the individual and allowing Barbara to shine, to stand up for what I felt counted... no more greed, dominance, control, deceit, judgement, cruelty, money hungering... as there is no place now for this kind of living, of being. I would not accept it any more, for and from myself and people around me. It was time now to be true to self and be an example of harmony and love... to radiate out my divine/human presence...
This is the only way the world will change when each individual awakens to the truth of their grandness, their sacredness, their sovereignity and ultimately stand together side by side (the 11-11-11... representing awakened individuals standing side by side...together)... Woow, what a great vision to have...
Around 12.12 noon Tom and myself caught the bus for downtown Ft Lauderdale,to enjoy some lunch on the beach front... before going to look for a new family car... it was a few hours later that my joyous feeling and outlook on life... hit rock bottom... It was as if I was checking whether or not I kept to my vision of radiating my grandness and not accepting bullsh.. from anyone! I won't go into so many details, but trust me I experienced spiralling into a black hole of chaos and drama! I was watching myself going into the drama, putting my foot down wildly about what I would accept from another... I deserve nothing less than kindness and support, besides it was my lesson and could deal with it myself... I retired to bed and breathed deeply hoping that the morning would bring me back into a peaceful environment... I awoke in the night having the need to write down the thoughts in my mind and repeat the words I love you Barbara, I'm sorry, Please forgive me and Thankyou! This was my way of making sure I released the chaos... afterall I didn't have the need to go into it even more...
When I awoke next morning, I could feel the peace within and that of everyone around me.
Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that it's bad to go into chaos, sometimes it's necessary to feel the energy... and discover what we truely want and allow old patterns to be released...and we must remember that it is only energy and we always have a choice whether to experience something or not!
So looking back, it was a great experience day and it has expanded my consciousness...
What about your experience of 11-11-11?
Barbara x
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